Post by Shelby on Sept 24, 2016 14:55:18 GMT
BASICS
Name/Nicknames ||
Toni Alice Locklear. No real nickname that she goes by, however over the years she has been called a variation of names such as 'bug eyes', 'twig', 'ghost', 'Barbie', 'toe' for a shortening of her name, and among other names that she would rather forget about. If you don't call Toni by her actual name, ten times out of ten she's not going to answer or even acknowledge you.
Age/Birthday ||
Twenty-one-years-old, born on January 1st, right at the stroke of midnight.
Reputation ||
Toni doesn't care much to have a reputation around school, no that she actually has one in the first place. She started attending Metric College her freshman year of college, and throughout the past three years it's been a bit of a struggle for her to get close to people, if anyone. She's fairly known in her cosmetology classes by her teachers and her classmates, and she's fairly known among the modeling majors as well, given how many a times she's been assigned to do their makeup and/or hair for a photos shoot for one of her classes. The modeling and cosmetology students came to know her as the eye makeup student, since, though Toni loves all makeup, she takes a sort of special care and attention to bringing out someones eyes to make them pop. Speaking of eyes, begrudgingly so to Toni, one of the things that she is known for around campus by the general population are the size of her eyes, something that stands out about her aesthetics and something that is hard to forget about.
Job ||
Toni is an assistant to one of the cosmetology teachers at Metric Academy, a woman who has become a sort of mentor for Toni while in college. She helps the teacher when it comes to demonstrations and is often asked to be a model for her, whether it's to do her hair, or to do her makeup. Without fail, she is always asked anything that has to do with eye makeup, but for her mentor she doesn't mind. The woman is nice.
SCHOOL/SOCIAL INFORMATION
School and Class ||
Toni attends Metric College as a Senior.
Major ||
Cosmetology with a concentration in hair styling and makeup application.
Friend(s) ||
Clay Carpet: Clay has become an important person in Toni's life because of the influence he's had in her self confidence in not only her appearance but in the general way she's had in talking with people as well. She's still not a social butterfly and would rather stick with her general routine in attending classes, going to the pool, and attending to other matters that she has to take care of, but Clay has become a friend to her, a person that she looks forward to speaking to and seeing on a regular basis. He's the first person that she's never felt has judged her, that has never talked behind her back, and that has truly respected her for who she is. And she appreciates that so much, so much more than he could probably ever understand. He's the closest person she's ever been to, and at times it's confusing, maybe even a little worrying, but she pushes the thoughts aside and takes them for what they are. She feels no worries when around Clay.
Todd Bennett: Though she doesn't communicate with him on a regular basis, she's had to do his makeup and hair frequently enough to where they might be acquaintances. To the stretch of the word, at least. Toni feels as if Todd is one of the nicest models out of the bunch that she's had to work with, one of the most down to earth and least snotty that she's had to deal with, and she appreciates that. At least he doesn't just talk about himself and actually listens to her when she's trying to talk about what she's doing so that she can get practice for when she works on regular people for what she really wants to do with her work.
Enemies/Rivals ||
Toni doesn't feel as if she has any enemies or rivals. Then again, she doesn't think that she's done anything to piss someone off enough to become her enemy, but what does she know? She's been known to attract people that just don't like her for some Godforsaken reason. As far as rivals? None. She's not competing against any of the people in her major; she feels no need to do so since cosmetology isn't a competitive field. Maybe she's just too laid back, though. It pays to not be going in the special effects or movie makeup; now that would have bought her a few rivals. But, as it was, she was only going to regular beauty work on regular people, maybe.
Sexuality ||
Questioning. She's not necessarily interested in finding a relationship until she's able to overcome her body image issues, however she doesn't know whether or not she's straight since she finds herself attracted to both men and women.
Relationship Status ||
Single.
APPEARANCE
Height/Body Type ||
Tony has a tall, lanky body, standing at 5'9" and just about as skinny as a stick. She has body issues, not thinking that she's overweight, but over the fact that she's so tall and skinny, something that she's tried to change in an unhealthy way but has, eventually let be. She has pale skin, hardly able to tan under any sunlight since she ends up burning and turning as red as a lobster.
Hair color ||
Toni's real hair color is honey blonde, just like her father's, but she's recently changed from her comfortable platinum blonde hair color to a very light shade of brown.
Eye color ||
Blue.
Clothing style ||
While Toni isn't one to be a trend setter, nor is she one to have a necessary style herself, she does tend to gravitate towards certain clothing. She likes either pastel colors or bold colors like deep reds and black, the extremes on both ends of the spectrum if you will. Along with that, she has a conservative style, never wearing anything revealing. You'll never see her stomach or her back. When she wears shorts they're never tight fitted or too short that it gets close to her ass--if you will, you can mostly call them kapris. She doesn't wear tight fitted shirts or dresses or skirts, and you'll never catch her wearing heels. When/if she wears jewelry she'll normally wear pearls, and though she has her ears pierced she normally forgets to put any earrings in. It's amazing that they haven't closed up yet.
Ethnicity ||
German American
Playby ||
Allison Harvard
PERSONALITY
Likes ||
Makeup, doing her hair, trying new hairstyles, mixing makeups and brands of makeup to create the perfect style, consulting others on their looks, making people feel better about themselves, matching makeups and hair styles (yes, she believes that there is a such thing as doing so), helping her mentor out, her baby brother, sunglasses
Dislikes ||
Her eyes, people looking at her eyes too much for too long, hats (why hide your hairstyle under a cap?), runny mascara, when her hair is being difficult, test, class (though generally she's a good student. She's just more hands on rather than the type of student to sit in class all day), pugs, Barbies, owls, people that comment that she uses "too much makeup", people asking whether or not her hair is her real hair color or even real (no shit it's real but not her real color. She may use extensions in other people's hair, but not in her own).
Positive traits ||
Modest, listener, caring, calm, gentle, conservative, cautious, reflexive, precise,
Negative Traits ||
Insecure, self-critical, aloof, tense, vulnerable, conservative, vague, calculating,
Hobbies ||
Doing hair and makeup. She also loves to swim and will, often times, be seen doing laps around the pool at school. Of course, she's still usually covered--never in a bikini, and she always wears shorts over herself. Usually, she makes sure that no one is around when swimming.
BACKGROUND/FAMILY
Father – Owen Locklear - Sports (baseball) Caster || Just like her mother, Toni loves her father to the bottom of her heart, even if she knows that when she was born he would have rather had a boy. But that was fine. She often fishes with her father when home, or swims in the lake behind their house when she's home for the summers. She's happy to talk sports with him, especially baseball, since she's grown up around the sport and knows just about as much information as he does about it. He is the man that has set the standards for any man she hopes to marry one day, meaning that finding the perfect man for her will be no easy feat, but, hopefully, it'll be possible. Her mother had found him, after all.
He works as a sports broadcaster, his busiest time of the year being spring when baseball starts up. He has an outspoken voice that's easily recognizable to those who listen to him on the radio or watch him on game days when he's sitting on a panel with other sportscasters. He grew up playing baseball but never had the skills for what it took to play it professionally, or even in college, so instead, he decided to do what he could to stay in the sports realm; he became a sportscaster, winning the hearts of many a baseball fan with his overwhelming knowledge of the sport. He tried to teach all he could to Toni, teaching her how to throw and catch a ball, showing her the proper way to hit a ball, and while she was a clumsy little thing, she always enjoyed it. He taught her the other loves of his life, fishing, deep sea fishing to be more specific, along with his wife Bailey. Toni is always welcome to talk to her dad about anything whenever she wants, and the two have a special bond with one another that Toni doesn't have with her mother.
Mother – Bailey Locklear - Columnist and Writes for a Blog || Tony loves her mother dearly and will often joke with her father that Bailey loves her more since Bailey had been excited to have a baby girl as her first. Despite the tomboyish ways that Owen represented for Toni, Bailey was the girly figure in Toni's life. Always dressing her up when she was a baby, putting her in the newest trend setting things that babies were wearing, and when Toni became a toddler that only became worse. When Toni was able to start picking out her own clothes Bailey grew disappointed, of course, but she let her daughter have her way and helped her along in other aspects of her life, such as through the awkward teenage years of life and through the hardships that she had been through in middle school and high school. With being a stay at home mom with being able to work from home on her blog and column work, Bailey had been able to give Toni the attention she needed.
It's easy to see that Bailey worries for her daughter more. Not to say that Owen doesn't worry about their daughter because he certainly does, but her motherly instincts always keep her wondering and guessing as well as worrying about the mental and physical state of her daughter. She'll call Toni on a daily basis to talk and see how she's doing, as will Owen, and always tell Toni that she loves her which is true. Toni has always felt as if she can tell her mother anything, more than her father, and with that comes a special bond that she has with her mother that she doesn't have with her father. While Toni would cry on both of their shoulders, she usually ran to her mother first, wrapping her lithe arms around the woman and rooting herself into the woman's neck like a baby would.
Brother - Tanner Locklear || While her baby brother is only three-years-old, Toni loves the little guy, even if he has a tendency to throw things at her--especially when he was a baby learning the concept of throwing. She often jokes with her parents that he'll be one hell of a pitcher one day, and Owen can only hope so as the little bugger gets bigger. Tanner had been a surprise to the family and a shock to Toni when she learned that her parents were pregnant her senior year. At first she thought that they were playing a joke on her, even calling them too old to have kids--she didn't mean it, not in a way to hurt them, but it slipped out anyway--but they hadn't been joking when they pulled out the sonograph and showed it to Toni. Tanner has always been a bit of a trouble maker, even before he was born. On her move in day to Metric College as Toni and her parents were setting up the rest of her suit, her mother's labor intensified quickly, resulting them to rush to the hospital. And without her mom even having a chance to have an epidural, Tanner popped out and entered into the world. One of the first things that Toni said to him was 'good job in making my move in day a lot more interesting'. She's still not sure whether or not her suitemates of that time had ever gotten over hearing her mother's screams as she went through her contractions before they were able to get her out of the building and to the hospital.
Backstory ||
Just like her little brother, Toni had come as a surprise in Owen and Bailey's life, but one that they loved dearly with all of their heart. There had been complications with the pregnancy for a while. At some points Bailey's blood pressure would be too high, sometimes it would be too low, and Toni had never positioned herself in the right position when she wanted to be born. But even when she wanted to be born hadn't been a good time; she had been born two months early, resulting in Toni's stay at the hospital for an extra month, much to the disdain of her parents. When Bailey's water had suddenly broke, sending down a trickle of blood as well, both she had her husband had been afraid that they had lost the baby, so they rushed to the hospital. Luckily they had been able to get Toni out, but her first couple of minutes of life had been scary: she wasn't able to breath properly, but when she finally was able to breath it wasn't was strong as they wanted it to be. Her lungs hadn't been able to develop fully, so for the month that she had been laid up in the NICU she had been hooked up to feeding and breathing tubes, wires sticking from her barely there frame.
They had been afraid that Toni wouldn't make it, frightening Bailey and Owen as they sat outside of Toni's glass 'cage' as they used to call it, praying that their daughter would make it. Their prayer has been answered as Toni started to gain weight and started to look like a newborn baby instead of a shriveled up blue alien. A pinkness to her color flushed her body, she was able to cry on her own through her lungs developing because of the drugs that had been shot into her speed up the development process for her, and she had, after a month of being fed from a tube, been able to feed from her mother's breast.
Neither Bailey or Owen ever found out why Bailey went into premature labor. The doctors couldn't figure it out either, but by the time they were able to take the still small baby home who cried often and wanted to eat often, they could care less. They were cautious around Toni for a while until things seemed okay with her, until she started to smile and laugh and wave her arms in the air as she started to learn to move around like babies younger than her had been able to learn. So after that point, Toni had a pretty normal life. After seeing the size of her eyes, Owen and Bailey, thinking that they were absolutely adorable, took many pictures and even bought a "Big Eyes" painting they saw at a local art gallery. It was worth a good penny, but the blonde hair blue eyed child on the photo reminded them of their daughter enough that they couldn't resist buying it. Oh, if only they knew eventually how much Toni would come to loathe that photo and even destroy it herself out of her anger and contempt for her and the picture's features.
Toni had been a happy child as she grew up. She hadn't been the prettiest, however. Her hair took a while to come in, keeping her bald for the longest time, and when it first started coming in in it was thin. She always looked tired, her lips seemed to be stuck in a perpetual purse with her small mouth, and she was... Pale. Bailey, while Owen was at work, would often sit outside on a nice spring or summer day in Wyoming on a blanket with a laptop on her lap and with Toni sitting beside her playing with one of her teething rings or other toys, hoping for the little girl to soak up the sun which never worked. Though Bailey would douse Toni's skin in sunscreen she seemed to always find a way to burn, and those few rare times when she did tan it never looked right on her. So, Toni was just their pale little child, but they loved her nonetheless and that that she was beautiful, even through her struggling weight. She never had the chubbiness of baby fat like most babies did, those cheeks that looked like squish able dough. But, nevertheless, they still loved their daughter.
She had been reluctant to go to school when she first had to go. She wanted to stay home with mommy but hadn't been able to. It had always been a struggle for Toni to make friends; she was a shy little girl who would rather be left by her lonesome, afraid to get close to others, but it was at that age that Toni started to learn how cruel kids could be. Some would point at her and laugh at her, telling her that her eyes looked too big for her head and that she looked tired. There had been more than one occasion when she had been asked by a teacher of hers if she ate proper meals at home, and when she always answered with a yes she was met with skeptical gazes. But it was true; she did eat, just never seemed to put any weight on. It's not something that she could help. She'd often find herself crying in class when they'd point at her eyes, and that hadn't changed until upper elementary school where, instead of crying over it, she'd just grow sad, even depressed. They started coming up with worse names like Barbie doll, saying that she looked just like one, and she hated that. She threw all of her Barbie dolls away after that, telling her mom and dad when they asked that she just didn't want them anymore.
In middle school things didn't get any better for her. She started looking even more awkward as she started to hit the years of puberty where nothing seemed to match on her body. The kids made fun of that, calling her a stick and a twig, calling her a bug or even a praying mantes. They would even call her a pug and compare her to an owl, asking her if she could turn her head around that long neck of hers, laughing all the while. Those times Toni would start back crying in private, usually in the bathrooms. When she'd go back home she'd look at herself in the mirror, wonder what was wrong with her and why she looked so thin and so weird, and would often go to her mother about her problems. But she hated it when her mother always told her that she looked beautiful when she knew that she didn't. She'd stare at the picture of the "Big Eyes" in the living room and one day grew so angry with the things that the kids had said that she ripped it from the wall, took it out of its frame, and tore it as best as she could. She had been punished for two weeks after that, sat down to talk with her parents about it, but she never told them what was wrong.
Her mood after that only got worse. During her punishment she'd sit in her room and look at herself in a mirror, always fingering her hair and her lips, glaring at her own eyes and her reflection in general. She'd pinch at her arms and her legs, press a thin hand against her stomach and turn her eyes to look away. She hated how skinny she was. It got so bad that she had been called anorexic at school, which she wasn't. She ate just what her parents did, healthy balanced meals. She wasn't a vegan or a vegetarian and ate just about everything on her plate. But she was still thin. And she hated it. It got to a point where she'd eat a big breakfast with lots of artificial sugars in it, would always pack a big lunch with her to school without her parents knowledge, and always had at least two helpings of dinner. She'd eat herself to the point where she was past full and unhealthy, thinking that it would help make her gain weight. She'd sneak sugary snacks into her diet when her parents were sleeping. The trend continued on until her sophomore year of high school, where the kids still taunted her and where, instead of gaining weight, she just felt sick. But she had gotten herself so into the unhealthy diet for so long behind her parents back that she couldn't stop. She turned to a sort of binge eating, and when her parents found out after a week of her being sick in bed after she admitted to what she was doing, she felt ashamed but she just hated her body so much!
They took her to the doctor and found out that she had diabetes after that, a surprise to all of them since they thought that diabetes only came to overweight people. Apparently not. But she needed to stop. Her parents sent Toni to counseling and talked with her parents often who then learned her troubles about her body imagine and learning about the depression that she had been carrying in her body for years. It wasn't hard to see the anguish it put her parents through, which saddened Toni more. It took a long time for her to open up during counseling, but it was there that Toni started doing things that she loved more, and learned about makeup and hair styling. It wasn't any secret that even then Toni loved doing her hair, not that she did anything with hers because she was always self conscious about what the kids in school would say about her, but her therapist urged her to try it once. She didn't, or not at school, rather. She'd do her hair in private, show her parents, and even she started to do her makeup, but when she looked at herself in the mirror... She liked what she saw the. But that point she had started to grow into her body and actually looked... Normal with her makeup done and her hair done, but she still hated her body. Her eyes still seemed too big for her, she still seemed too thin... Her parents and doctor tried to explain to her that that was just her body, that she had to accept it, but she couldn't. Not yet.
After school she started swimming, using the lake behind their house to swim for hours by herself to think. It was something that worried her parents, because they were never sure whether or not she'd be willing to kill herself, but she never did. Though Toni had found herself in the deepest despair of her depression and body image issues, and while she thought about suicide, she never did it. The thought of her parents being upset and crushed over her death stopped her. She'd always keep herself covered when in the lake, and then she'd go back upstairs fix her hair, put on makeup, and stare at herself in the mirror, stare at those damned eyes.
Her parents started to encourage her with her makeup and hair styling. Her mother told her that she had a real talent for it, and her father often told her that though he knew nothing about makeup she made it look interesting. She'd still never wear it to school, though, thinking that it'd only bring more attention to her. But she was slowly beginning to get more confident with it. Her parents, when she was a turning a Senior in high school, allowed her to express herself how ever she liked. Toni took to buying various amounts of makeup and hair dye and do it herself. At one point her hair had change from sandy blond to violet, from violet to hot pink, from hot pink to teal blue with a light blonde intermixed into it, and a rainbow of colors that stretched through the years. Throughout the rest of her years in high school she still went to counseling, and still kept her hair in plain hair styles in school despite the changes in colors, still dressed conservatively, still wore no makeup, and was still the reserved quite girl who was afraid to talk to anyone and had no friends.
But then she started to realize what she wanted to do in college since she definitely wanted to go, wanted to get out of this small town. She wanted to be a cosmetologist, to do people's hair and makeup. Her reasoning: She wanted to make other women look beautiful, to make them feel beautiful. She hoped to give someone the confidence to love themselves unlike she did and hoped that with her little bit of consulting and with her work that no one would have to fall into the pit of despair that she had gone through.
In the beginning of her time in Metric she was still shy and reserved, but she was getting better. She styled her hair and kept makeup on in public after realizing that people there didn't care, that people there even called her pretty. She started... Gaining more confidence, even liking her body at some points. As people worked on her eyes and applied makeup to it or complimented her eye makeup, she often heard people say that they wished they had those. She didn't understand, but... She felt better. She still battles through her depression and anxiety to this day, though she's working on it and is still talking to a therapist, a different one now. She's slowly beginning to gain confidence in her body though she still has a tendency to look at her eyes and body with disdain, keeping them hidden under clothes and behind sunglasses so that no one can make fun of her. But with a life goal in mind, now, she has other things to think about. Toni still has bouts of when she's depressed and would rather be left alone, but she's not as afraid or sad as she used to be. She's moving in the right direction. Still with a lot of work to do, but she's working on it. No more making herself unhealthy or doing anything stupid to her body. She's slowly beginning to like herself and who she is.
OOC NOTES
As much as she loathes it, Toni still battles with her diabetes, though luckily she hasn't gotten to the point where she's had to get insulation shots. She still only takes pills to regulate her blood sugar and tries her best to stay away from too sugary sweets, not only for her diabetes but also afraid that she'd fall back into the habit of trying to eat unhealthily to gain weight. She also takes antidepressants and takes anti-anxiety medication to keep her chemically balanced inside.
Toni can hold her breath for a long time under water. The last time she timed herself she could stay under for three minutes. An impressive feat in her book.
Toni loves her new hair color. She's not trying to become a new person, but believes that having a darker shade of hair makes her not seem as pale skinned as she actually is. It gives her a little more confidence in herself, which is always a positive in her book.